My Brain Sucks.

An alternate title to this post might have been ‘Settle the fuck down’.  Here is a 30 second transcript from my brain:

I need to pay off that debt.
I wonder if I’m going to get laid tonight.
I should have studied harder in college.
How does so-and-so afford that car? Why can’t I?
Work sucks.
I wonder if my wife is going to leave me.
Is it too early in the day for a first drink?
Are the kids okay?
Is there enough gas in the car?
If we can close that deal, work will be great.
I wish my mortgage wasn’t so expensive.
I need a new car.
That girl has a nice rack. I love sweater weather.
I have to remember to change that light bulb.
Is it too early in the day for a second drink?

All of this was going through my head while I was walking through the center of town with this view.

Guilford Green

James Altucher’s post ‘How to be THE LUCKIEST GUY ON THE PLANET in 4 easy steps’ describes how he has only 3 goals. They are:

A) I want to be happy.
B)   I want to eradicate unhappiness in my life.
C)   I want every day to be as smooth as possible. No hassles.

That resonates, but I might say as a starter on the path to happiness I just want my brain to settle the fuck down. I want to be at peace for a minute. Quiet. How can I be surrounded by that much beauty and worrying about a light bulb or anything else that was going through my mind. In fairness, you can always be distracted by a nice rack, so that one gets a kitchen pass.

The past is the past. It’s done and over. If I don’t like how it unfolded, I could use the same brain muscle I use to stress, fantasize and worry about the future to rewrite it. I did study hard in college. Otherwise I’d be better at beer pong.

The future won’t unfold in any of the ways that I imagine. I will either win the lottery, get hit by a bus, get fired, or knock up the neighbor’s 20-year old. One of those is bound to happen I would think. Odds and all. And then all bets are off.

For right now, maybe I could sit on one of those benches and shut my virtual pie hole. That would be nice for a moment.

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